6/15/2020

While halfway listening to GDL this morning a feeling of urgency came over me. I was listening
to two authors of childrens' books talk and it hit me that I love to write and have loved to write
and that I needed to gain my momentum and begin that exercise.

I usually get kind of wound up around writing but then I back off so I have not really produced
any significant writings. I believe i get stuck in the survival swamp and get bogged down there...

6/16/2020

While I was doing my exrcise routine this morning, I could not help but to think of my mother.
The yoga routine around breathing and movement brought this thought to my mind, " I think
my mother would have loved to learn this." The one thing that stands out in my memory of her
is that she seemed to always be seeking out information pertaining to What i believe was a
desire to create changes in herseelf that would produce a positive outcome. S

I had the opportunity to be the youngest child so I needed to have supervision while my older
siblings were able to have a little more freedom. One thing that the need for supervision gave
me was an opportunity to somewhat of a partner in her quests. When it seemed to me that
she was seeking after some kind of spiritual enlightenment, I was with her as she perused the
Christian Science reading Room at 4th and Oak Streets. I also was privvy to the religious radio
programs she listened to. I soon began to realize that the information she was seeking was not
the conBentional I'Baptist" information. Our family was a Baptist family and Christian Science,
(Mary Baker Eddy) and The World of Tomorrow, (Herbert W. Armstrong) were not within that
convention. I don't really remember how old I was when I was taking in what she was listening
to, but I must have been somewhere between 6 and 14 years old. At any rate, I believe i stored
the fact in the back of my mind that a person could seek after different forms of knowledge be
akay. I think that although i did not realize the behavioral acknowledgement at the time, I think
that having been exposed to it allowed me to feel a ceratain comfortability seeking outside the
usual box.

I thought about that today and felt a warmth in my heart as | somewhat imagined my mother
wanting to learn the yoga movements. I have also felt this same type of feeling when I have
incorporated other things into my own life. for example, ifi moved to a certain house or
apartment, i would think how much my mother would have loved to have been in that space