23rd Myself & B F Martin went to G Mitchells after some
cattle &c to day
24th Went to Henderson the road was verry Rough and I was so
unwell that this was a verry severe trip on me and to night I am com-
pletely used up
25th Christmas Day I was verry sick all night and this morning
I do not feel much like enjoying Ch.ristmas and have been confined to
my Bed the most of the day
26th Sunday I have been about the house all day as I have been
very unwell
27th Sick again it seems that I am once more to spend my
Christmas in Bed
28th To day has been but a repetition of the Past several day}-
Sick and unable to be up and attending to my business I have had time
for my reflections to assume the character of an afflicted one
indeed yet I have no doubt it is all for the best
29th Sick again Too sick to be up and not sick enough to be in
Bed I begin to realize the fact that I have chased the wild goose a
little too far in the beginning of my sickness and now must calmly
await events
30th I have spent this day like many others of late a part of the
time in bed and the Ballance Scarcely able to be up allthough at night
I went to the Concert at the Methodist Church Mr. Harris and Class
I thought done remarkably well and some of the Pieces would Challenge
competition with any Class of Singers Allthough I was verry unwell
I enjoyed this Concert verry much
31st To day closes the month and year 1869 I am not able to
write much as I have been verry unwell all day spending the whole of
the Christmas week either in Bed or about the house Perhaps it has
been all for the best Poor short sighted Mortals cannot know it may
be that by being sick I have been protected from something worse by the
allwise Rullar of the Universe or I may have been afflicted to reach me
humility and the frailty of all human things in either event I accept it
as a dispensation of Providence and Bow in Humble submission to his holy will
And to night at the close of the year I am willing to confess that I could
have spent the past year much Better than I have done for I know I have
done many things that I ought not to have done and left undone many things
that I ought to have done Tis thus with us Poor short sighted Mortals